Owning my Inadequacy

My current Bible reading plan has me reading 10 chapters a day. Mostly you move ahead to the next book of the Bible as each is completed, with readings through the Old and New Testaments.  The only difference is the book of Acts and Proverbs.  When you finish those you start again.  It’s a little confusing to explain, but if you google Professor Grant Horner’s Bible Reading system you can find some more info there.  I have really enjoyed this method this year. I try to change things up each year as I read through the Bible, because I just find new and wonderful nuggets along the way.  This morning was just such a time for me but it happened in my first chapter – so I was stuck just pondering the passage for a while.

Has that happened for you? You’ve read something before, but never has the thought struck about the way things are worded or why Jesus said or did something the way he did?  It’s so exciting for me after all these years to continually be shown new things, and to have new thoughts leap up from the pages to my brain so I thought my encouraging word for you today would come from what I read this morning – I hope you will be encouraged by it.

Luke 9:10-17 Sets the scene once again for the feeding of the five thousand.  This is such an exciting time in the gospels as Jesus is teaching and leading and healing the people coming to him for help.  This is also not the only time we read of this story – it’s just from Luke’s gospel this time.  This record of events states that the 12 disciples came to Jesus asking him to send the large crowd away.  They needed food and lodging and the disciples were concerned because they were in a desolate place.

Now mind you I’ve read this account multiple times before but I was struck today by Jesus’ reply – vs. 13 But he said to them, “You give them something to eat.”  Now Jesus was already aware that they had no provisions for 5,000 men but they responded anyway with the fact that they only had five loaves and two fish.  I found it interesting that instead of Jesus just saying, yes you are right, we have no food I need to perform a miracle with the little we have, his first response was to tell them to feed them.

For me in that moment, I couldn’t just keep reading, because I know that is exactly what God does with me in my life.  He reveals my complete lack. My emptiness, and brokenness. My weakness and my failures. My inadequacy to do anything meaningful on my own. My complete mess of my own making with no answers in sight, so that He can reveal His glory in my story.  He took the little they gathered and blessed it and fed the crowd WITH LEFTOVERS afterward.  He revealed to them what they could not do so that they could see His vast omnipotence and miraculous hand in and over all.

How exciting!  Let me be honest though, it’s not often that I want to count up my failures and weakness.  Truth be told, I’m rather a “take charge” and get it done kind of person and  I work to get things figured out.  He reminded me in the quiet this morning that He already has it all figured out, and He is just waiting for me to realize it.

What a gift our relationship is with Him. My encouragement for you is to please – take the time to sit in His presence.  Nothing will help you face your day better than to dwell with Him.

4 thoughts on “Owning my Inadequacy

  1. Joan Crowson says:

    Vicki, I started the Horner reading system in September after picking up the info on Richard and Amber’s table at the GIC. This is the best system I have ever used and one I have stayed with because the interweaving of the Testaments proves over and over again that scripture proves itself and like you said, the Holy Spirit seems to show me a new “nugget ” almost every day. It seems miraculous how this reading pattern works, but that’s God’s way isn’t it? He is in the miracle business!


    • vduerstock73 says:

      LOVE this! I discovered the reading plan actually in my Bible app. It was intriguing to me and I couldn’t wait to dig in – even though I generally don’t love jumping around. This is exceptional though – and yes I love the nuggets…so so good 🙂


  2. Being Woven says:

    I have never heard of this plan but will be checking into it. I so get frustrated with myself when I don’t, can’t keep up so allow myself to be behind because I so love to ponder, allowing the Holy Spirit to teach me and move me.
    Thanks, ~ linda


    • vduerstock73 says:

      I understand that frustration – I tend to feel the same way but I am working on grace in this season, and letting myself sit and ponder when necessary and picking back up with the “day” of reading later. It’s ok, if I’m a little behind, because I’m soaking in what He’s teaching me.
      Thank you so much for stopping by and chatting! God Bless!


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